Haven't blogged in a while. Forgot how therapeutic it can be. Life has become chaos and this can be a place I stop and focus. Sorry for the silent treatment, but a lot of people are getting it from me too.
Since my mother went into the hospital in February, I have been unable to talk on the phone much. Even with relatives. It was difficult to say the same things over and over about my mother's worsening condition. Thankfully my sister in NC made a few calls and loving relatives tag teamed for us. The worst call I had to make was on Tuesday 3/9/10... I called my sister to let her know mom was gone....
Now phone calls are still difficult for me as I am an emotional basket case. A simple "how are you" sets off uncontrollable tears.
Everyone is pretty much getting the silent treatment from me. It doesn't mean that I don't love you. The only person I am not silent with is God. I gave Him the silent treatment when my father passed away. I can't go back there. He might be tired of hearing from me and want the silent treatment... nah!
Thank you all for your prayers and concern. I am on a ride and I want to get off, but it won't slow down... I want to scream, but I remain silent.
